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Fascinations

There are a few surprising things that I have found interesting to capture since returning back to the USA. Newspaper boxes, mailboxes and parking meters. Lovely parking meters, like this set, all by themselves. Or parking meters with something else, like my scooter. I didn’t see these beauties in Italy, there was usually a box where you would pay down the street and print a receipt. That was boring. These are interesting.

The real voyage of discovery consists of not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes. 
— Marcel Proust
Linking in to Texture Tuesday today. Here’s the recipe I used:
– First, adjusted levels and converted to sepia tone.
– Next, added Kim Klassen’s crackerjack texture, blended with soft light at 88%.
– Erased this layer over the parking meters.
– Finally, added the crackerjack texture again, rotating 180 degrees. Blended with soft light at 48%.

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Afraid… We Fade

When did we, when did we get so careful?
When did we, when did we lose ourselves?
Afraid… we fade.
We fade out.

— Matt Nathanson in his song “Love Comes Tumbling Down”

This quote is from the bridge in my favorite song off Matt Nathanson’s new album, Modern Love. These words have just stuck with me… “Afraid… we fade.” 


So true, isn’t it? When we are afraid of something, we shrink back. Hide. We stick to the tried and true, which over time becomes the boring and predictable. And we slowly, bit by bit, disappear.

As I’ve worked through some of my feelings around moving back to Oregon, photography, creative inspiration and blogging, I’ve realized I’ve been afraid. Afraid I wouldn’t find photographic inspiration. Afraid I would lose my stream of creative ideas. Afraid I wouldn’t have anything interesting to write or show. Afraid I would lose my blog readers.

So today as I debated on whether or not to post another crab pot photo, as I heard in my head, “Who would want to see another photo of crab pots,” this song reminded me to just get over my silly fears and get on with it. Do what I love, write and share what interests me, as I always have. When did I get so careful? Why is this so hard? I seem to have to re-learn this concept over and over again.


“Afraid… we fade. We fade out.” 

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When a Plan Comes Together

Cheerful flowers and colorful paint make me smile!
Carbondale, Colorado

Guess what today is? Monday, yes. The middle of August, that too. It’s also the day I link in to Creative Every Day and the Creative Exchange. But it’s even bigger than that: Today is the first day of my part time work schedule. Woohoo!!

Last week everything was finalized and agreed, and as of today I will be working at my “day job” Monday through Friday ~11am to 5pm-ish. I am so excited. I have been working toward this change for a very long time.

For those of you who may be new around here, I fell in love with having my mornings as my personal time while in Italy. My work schedule was afternoons and evenings, due to the need to work with both the Italian and US folks on a daily basis, which left my personal time as the mornings. Some time ago, as part of a series called Lessons from Abroad, I wrote about how changing my schedule this way led to some great realizations for my creativity. Mornings are my creative time.

When I finalized my schedule and transition date with my new manager last week, I realized how long in coming this transition really was. It was almost a year ago, last October, when I first started talking to my former manager about going part time on my return to the US. It was before that, while writing the Lessons from Abroad series for Jenny Shih‘s newsletter and blog, that I identified the schedule change and aligning to my creative energy cycle as a key factor in my personal transformation. And it was part of writing the specific article, Change up Your Schedule, that I really started to think about how I could maintain my “mornings free” schedule upon my return.

So, over the last year I’ve been having periodic conversations with my husband, my management at work, and myself about how this could work. I’ve played with different schedule ideas, “trying them on” in my imagination to see what would fit for me personally and at work. The Monday-Friday/11-5 schedule is the one I settled on recently, and when I proposed it last week it was a win-win for everyone. My new manager likes that I will be there every day instead of taking a day off; I like that I have 5 more mornings a week for myself. Can’t beat that.

This is a great example of how long it can sometimes take an idea to come to fruition. The idea of part time/ mornings free was a seed planted a year ago. Nurtured, the seed grew into a plan that I took small steps on over time. It is a good reminder that if you stick with an idea, turn it into a plan and take baby steps toward it along the way, you can make it work. Things may not happen immediately, but with action, things do happen. Without action, it’s just daydreaming. Yes, I was nervous when I first started talking about part time at work. Yes, I was nervous to have the conversation on my schedule last week. But all of my groundwork and planning and patience paid off, and here I am this Monday morning, free.

What will I create today?

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The Reality of the Situation

A group of colorful bike racks in a Carbondale, Colorado city parking lot.

I’m back in Oregon this week. I don’t just mean back from vacation, I mean as of this week, I’m really here, back from Italy too. This is the first week where the reality of our situation – living here permanently again – has really sunk in. A few people have mentioned to me that things seem to be going pretty well with our return. It’s true, they have been going surprisingly well. The adjustment has been much easier than anticipated in many ways. But I don’t think it was until this week that “reality” hit.

Here are a few things I’ve noticed this week:

Travel. For the first time in two and a half years, I don’t have a vacation coming up in the next couple of months.  No visits to new countries on the horizon, no next trip in the works. Just a stretch of several months with no vacation time left at work and no firm plans yet for future travel. It is odd. I found myself hurrying at work to get something done before I left for… nowhere. I’m not sure what I was thinking. I’ve gotten used to working to that next deadline of time off. Even moving back, I had three weeks here and then we left again to visit Colorado.  It’s not bad, it’s just different and something I need to get used to. This reminds me I need to get some plans on the calendar, if only for some weekend excursions. I love to travel too much!

Transport. We are down to one vehicle, living in a place where we’ve always had two. When we moved to Italy, we sold our car and had a friend keep our truck. We had always planned on buying another car when we returned, but several months ago I started wondering if we needed to. We had been living in Italy with one car, I could ride my bike to work (I used to commute by bike all the time), and our town is small enough to easily get around. Between bike, bus and scooter I figured we could get by. After returning home from Italy, we had a rental car for several weeks, which was returned the day before we left for Colorado. This week is the first week we are truly living with one vehicle. It’s a different feeling to bike to work because I have to rather than because I want to. It’s different to ask if a friend can drive because I don’t have a car. Not bad, just a little uncomfortable at the moment. Not to mention that I have discovered that my body is not in the best shape to go from riding zero miles to 60 miles (6 mile commute each way) in a week. I couldn’t quite make it through the week, I caught a ride on Wednesday to give my legs a break.

Finances. We’ve gone from a completely unique financial mindset in Italy (two years = no regrets), to a temporary mindset moving home (get our lives set up ASAP), to me starting a part time schedule next week. Back to reality, and getting ourselves on a long-term budget once again. We didn’t go hog-wild while on our assignment, but the “no regrets” mentality did change our handling of money. That can’t stay in place forever without serious consequences. I tend toward being financially conservative so my budget-minded, practical side keeps me in line, but my impulsive, emotional side is feeling the tension of restraint. Working part time is nothing new and living on a budget is nothing new… It’s just like the bike though, we’re out of shape and it’s a little uncomfortable at the moment.

So there you have it in a nutsell: Reality has set in. When first moving back, it was all about the physical changes that come with location. Now I’m feeling real changes that make me internally uncomfortable. I know I’ll get used to this new reality, but that doesn’t eliminate the discomfort of changing habits. It only makes it manageable.

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How Things Stack Up

I was working with the photos from my last trip to Venice earlier this week, and came across this image of GROM gelato cups. Not only is it a great repeating pattern in a couple of different ways, it’s a reminder of some of the best gelato in Italy. GROM is a chain, but has very consistent high quality. If you visit Italy and see one of these gelaterias, duck in and try it. My favorite flavors are in-season fruit gelatos, such as apricot and melon. Eating this gelato is like eating the best, ripest, most perfectly tasting fruit you’ve ever had. I don’t know how they do it!

As I was looking at this photo, I was thinking about my transition back. Do I miss gelato? Not so much. I didn’t eat it all of the time. I’ve found that I really miss good parmigiano reggiano cheese, and we had to search for a source of good balsamic vinegar here. The stuff we first bought at the grocery store was horrid, even though it was labeled with the official “Balsamic Vinegar of Modena.” We think they send the worst stuff to the US since we don’t know any better. If you’ve never had it, really good balsamic vinegar is one of the most wonderful flavors. Find yourself a specialty store that imports the good stuff, and try it.

All in all though, the move back has been much easier than I expected. I’m very happy to be back. I think I was worried, by coming back to the same place, I would be coming back to being the person I was two years ago, slipping into the old routines and ways of thinking. It seems silly now, but all of the changes and discoveries and learnings I’ve had are still with me. Of course they are! The only thing I’m doing is learning how to adjust my schedules and balance my time with different demands. But the core of who I am, and how I work creatively, is the same as in Italy.

In a couple of months, when I haven’t travelled to another country in a while, I might feel differently. I did have an overwhelming feeling of strong emotion, maybe yearning, at one point when I was working with my pictures from Venice. We’ll see how that goes.

All in all though, I’m glad to be home.

PS – It’s the last day to register for the July session of Find Your Eye: Starting the Journey. Class starts on Sunday!

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New Schedules + Favorites: Covered Parking

Covered Parking
Amsterdam, The Netherlands, 2009
I only have three more days of “favorite” pictures left on the schedule and then I’ve got to get myself back onto the regular blogging bandwagon. You can probably tell I’ve scheduled these posts on Italy time and then I’m writing them as I can. For some reason, I’m reluctant to change my blog back to Pacific Standard Time. I know, I’ll get over it. It will be too confusing not to change it.
So what will my blogging schedule be? The same as Italy, where I write in the morning? Do I change it up to write at night? Do I write whenever and schedule? How is it all going to work out? To top it all off I’m going part time at work (yay!!) but not immediately, so that means it will be a while before things settle out.
I was chatting with a friend at work today about my work schedule and said, “It’s fun to figure it all out!” I honestly didn’t know where that comment came from. I mean, it doesn’t feel very fun right now. I’m a bit overwhelmed and tired. And then I stopped and realized, my statement was totally true. When I stop focusing on my tired/overwhelm of the moment, I am excited to figure it all out. Even though I don’t have a routine right now (and I looooove routine), I have the possibility of figuring out something new. I have the possibility to combine some of the best parts of my Italy schedule with my Corvallis schedule and see what happens. 
Add ingredients, shake well, taste. Stay tuned to see how it comes out!